Just...

Is it weird to feel..

Detached when you know someone loves you
Estranged when you are very well taken care of
Lonely when the world is around u
Insane when everything is going right
Uncomfortable in your own skin
Loud in the quiet of the night
Restless in the wee hours of morning
Annoyed at nothing yet everything
Tears on your cheeks as you laugh
Miserable for hours..
…

And yet not know the reason?

Sometimes

Where I came from was a fairy tale
Radiated,pure and blissful
Where I go to is not what I know of
Mesmerized,enchanted or plain wishful
Thoughts don’t leave me a moment,
Mind overpowers the heart.
Sometimes I wonder,
Is it what one is born with
or just a part of growing up?

Just...a thought

I have again been attacked by the writer's block and was thinking that I wouldn't be able to write for some time;But such is life,things do happen when u least expect them to.

Had a terrible start to the day where I stuck my foot in the bathroom door and the damn thing still hurts.Somehow got dressed for work to realize that i wasn't fitting into my favorite shirt all of a sudden;Grumpy and grouchy left for work only to be stuck in a hour long traffic jam.
Finally on reaching office,when i was struggling hard to gain my sensibilities,i had a major fight with one of my closest friends.And for the first time in 4 years,we both raised our voices and yelled and shouted at each other.
I feel terrible ever since.I shouldn't have said all the bad things I did...but at the same time I feel that the same holds true for him.
The trouble with friends of opposite sex is that the perspectives of fights change for the two people.While the men show their anger by keeping quiet,we women tend to be more expressive and loud.
So,while my talking too much pissed him off,his keeping quiet did the job for me.
I am so miffed,and irritated yet I don't know how to correct this situation.There are times when u know its not your fault,and u know that u stand correct,but tend to change your judgment for others' happiness..
But this time I don't wish to do it.How many times can we go on losing ourselves and our thoughts to keep others happy?Shouldn't the same thing hold true for others too?
Why can't friends stop being judgmental and take you the way you are?Why do some people expect you to change for them when ideally a true friend should accept you the way u are and still love you?Why do people expect you to be sensitive to their emotions while they don't do the same to you?Why do people dislike it when you decide to stand up to your thoughts against them,when they were the ones who taught you to do so?
So many questions in my mind and none that I have answer to..
I just know that I don't want to lose a good friend to an ego clash;that's the worst death a friendship can suffer.:(

w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r!!!!!!!

I m so totally pissed...freaked...irritated...and god knows what all...
I sometimes just dont understand...why the heck am I here...what the hell am I doing...
somehow being Bangalored totally sucks...
sometimes working in this office totally kills...
I am so angry...so livid,so frustrated,so annoyed...

I fail to understand my everyday purpose...my goal,my dream..this is not what I dreamt of doing...this is not what I dreamt of growing up to become..
This is definitely not what I planned for myself..!!!!
But I landed here...and here that I am...I dont know ,why is it always me who has to face it all...to be THE ONE out of all the other deserving people to be here in this spot!!!!
but who cares...
just about no one..
and thats what makes it worse...
God...I hate this!!!!!